Sunday, May 29, 2005
Simply
attracted
by
tat
somebody
now
+ [ Nite Rainbows ] After every heavy rainstorm, there is a rainbow + 5:51 PM
Saturday, May 28, 2005
Guess who i saw yest??? HAHA!!! I saw Mr T again.... we wore almost the same colour. Den tat ah wai kept teasing mi. She very bad de loh. Hmmm.... i realized tat the sight of him can make mi feel lighten up abit. So got to thank him for appearing in front of mi when i was very down. Last time we will smile when we walk pass each other but now no more le. Haizz... don know why like tat also. Who can tell mi???Ok don tok abt him le. I got to study for my 3 ICAs le. And i still need to do some research on the stock market. Have to find out which shares should i invest in and have to plan the investment strategy. Haizzzz!!!!!!
+ [ Nite Rainbows ] After every heavy rainstorm, there is a rainbow + 7:56 AM
Thursday, May 26, 2005
Hen Shen Qi!!!!! Stupid old man..... argh....... juz now on my way home, there was this middle aged man who sat beside mi. Don't know wat he trying to do loh.... Occupied such a big space and left a tiny little space for mi. Like tat still ok... the worst is tat he kept moving here and there. Everytime he moved, he will somehow come even nearer!!! Angry!!!! Don talk abt him le.... Don let him destory my gd day....Hmmm.... i saw teddy bear again!!!! so shock to see him..... don't know why he came back to sch again. Maybe he is back for his training. Saw Mr T twice today. 1st time was his backview and the 2nd time was front view. So today can be a double happiness day for mi.....
+ [ Nite Rainbows ] After every heavy rainstorm, there is a rainbow + 6:11 PM
Wednesday, May 25, 2005
Hmmm... rainy day.... luckily today is my off day if not i will be wet again. So happy coz i received an email frm Mr T. Although it is only a forward mail but this is the first time he send mi an email loh.... This mail really make my day better:) Need to start studying for next week ICAs le. I have got 3 ICAs next week. OMG!!! At first i thought only 2 but ah wai told mi GI also next week. Haizzz den it became 3. I have always thought that GI is on week 8. But nvm la, week 7 or week 8 is still the same coz i will be having quite a no. of tests on both weeks. Hoping for the 2 weeks(week 9 & 10) break to come. But i don't think can relex during the break coz we have got a few projects to complete. So busy.... Both ah wai & miran going hong kong for holiday. I will be staying in S'pore struggling wif all my projects. So sad de loh :( Nvm..... i'm saving up to go travelling after i finish my 3rd year. Anyone wanna join??? Maybe ah wai n miran coming wif mi....Yest met Amy & Kim when we were on our way to GI tutorial. Amy was asking mi whether if i will be receiving any awards on this fri. Hmmm... i don think i will be getting any leh although i got A for my TEP. Till now i have yet to receive any notice about the award thingy. Hmmm.... maybe Amy wanna giving mi an award herself???? HAHA!!! I promised ah wai tat if i get the TEP award, i will treat her milkshake. Hmmm... but now i think there will be no more hope le.... Nvm.... i bring her to the place and she will pay for the milkshake herself. HAHA!!!
+ [ Nite Rainbows ] After every heavy rainstorm, there is a rainbow + 10:00 AM
Monday, May 23, 2005
Long weekend is going to end soon... Today woke up at 8 plus and den started to work on my stuff again. Hmmmm.... My IB project is almost done le. Now only left wif the conclusion part. I shall leave that till tml and do it wif my team. As for the ppt i also do le so i think tml should be able to finish the project. Happy:)!!! Got to hand in 3 reports this week. So many projects and tests... Hiazz.. but nvm coz 3rd year le. I can be out of this sch very soon:)Juz finish ironing my big pile of clothes...... I think there are ard 20 pieces. OMG!!! Haizzz, 1 week didn't iron only den it become such a big pile. Next time can't be lazy le if not i will need to iron like mad the following week. While i was ironing those clothes, i suddenly remember tat sat. was Mr T's bday. Aiyo, how could i forget all abt it..... haha... maybe it is fated tat he will not get my bday wishes de.
+ [ Nite Rainbows ] After every heavy rainstorm, there is a rainbow + 3:37 PM
Saturday, May 21, 2005
Seems like many things are happening within these few weeks. Not sure if i can still cope wif all of them ma. So fan!!! Going crazy soon...Let's not tok abt all thses unhappy stuff now. Hmmm.... actually i have got not many happy things to say also. Let mi think....... oh ya... i saw Teddy Bear on thur. So long didn't see him le. If i'm not wrong should be ard 2 months. If ah wai didn't tell mi, i think i would have miss the chance of seeing him tat day. He is still as cute. Wonder why he went back to sch tat day.... On fri i saw Mr T after lunch. haha.... den tat ah Kiang so bad kept calling mi when Mr T walked passed us. Bad ger!!! Miran told mi tat he went to the OIPP Briefing. Maybe he is going for OIPP... If tat is the case den hope he can go to the country which he desire.Week 7 is appoarching very soon..... and tat means all my ICAs are here le. Hiazzz.... the ICAs cover so many topics esp the QM. The sch must be mad de. Look like this sem will be ending very soon. This week is already week 6 and it is almost half de sem le. OMG!! SO FAST....
+ [ Nite Rainbows ] After every heavy rainstorm, there is a rainbow + 7:35 PM
Wednesday, May 18, 2005
I went to get my hair perm today. Quite happy wif the result somemore it is FOC de. HAHA!!! Wat a good deal rite??? I was at the salon for ard 3 hrs, 11am to 1.15pm. Now my hair is filled wif the chemcial smell. Can't stand the smell le!!! But wat to do??? Got to bear wif it for 2 to 3 days. OMG!!!Enough of my hair le.... Hiazzz... let mi tok abt my 3rd yr life now. Hmmm... this is only the 5th week and i can feel the stress le. So many tests n projects. Can hardly breath le. This time round the topics tested for each ICAs is like ard 4 and some even more than tat. Then the projects are no longer as simple as those we got in 1st and 2nd yr le. Stress ar!!! Last year le, pls let mi do well in all my modules. Fri coming le!!! I should be happy abt that de but haizzzz.... still got the GI lecture during fri evening leh. Really hate that lecturer. She always waste time on toking rubbish de loh. Can't stand her!!! Last week was Fri the 13 and i skipped her lesson.. haha... bad ger rite??? I was so sianz tat day coz got to wait for a long while before tat lecture starts ma, so i decided not to go. I think it was already a bad day for mi le so i don't wanna see her and make my day worst.My cousins going Bangkok on this fri morg. Luckily i didn't go wif them if not i will have to skip a few lessons on fri le. But now i regret le leh... Should have join them coz i wanna go out of S'pore for awhile. Really need a change of environment to let mi think abt some things. Haizzz.. nvm... have to face the reality.
+ [ Nite Rainbows ] After every heavy rainstorm, there is a rainbow + 4:10 PM
Monday, May 16, 2005
Omg!!! i'm now stuck in the lab, having a boring Investment tutorial. Haiz, the tutor don't know how to teach de. Tok n tok but dun know wht he toking abt. Pls leh, teach till so chim how to understand??? Pls stick to our lect notes la, don't always bring in things which we have no ideas at all can ma??? Stupid de loh..... Already so unhappy le den still need to attend his lesson. This make mi feel worst now. Dun know how to teach den don't become a part time tutor leh. Wanna make mi fail ar??? Hate part timers!!!!!
+ [ Nite Rainbows ] After every heavy rainstorm, there is a rainbow + 12:26 PM
Sunday, May 15, 2005
My cousin called mi n we talked abt many issues. Most of them are sad sad things. So poor thing rite?? She is so sad and told mi that she wanna cry out loud. When i heard that my heart was aching. Haizzz..... she is so stressed up by her son's studies. Tat day she saw the form teacher and was told tat her son's studies is not too good. Den she is so sad:( She told her mother(my auntie) tat she wanna let her son have tuition. But my auntie disagree wif her and said tat she can teach by herself why waste the $$$. If i'm not wrong i think the both of them quarrelled again. I told my mummy wat happened n she agrees wif my cousin's decision. Coz my mother was once in tat position before tat's why she supported her idea. I feel tat my cousin n my mummy quite similar in some ways. The way they think n tok is almost the same. Haha... if they don't tell anyone abt their relationship, i think others might misunderstand tat the 2 of them are mother & daughter.She got trouble she will always tell mi de. I also dun know why... Like this time round she ask mi whether if i can give her any ideas on how to teach her son. Den i came out wif a few but not sure if those will work on her son ma. Anyway, i have agreed to help her teach her son le. So i think she is much relieve now.I feel tat i can be easily affected by other pple feelings too. Maybe i'm too sensitive le. I also dun know leh. Now i dun wanna think abt anything le. Juz concentrate on my studies n good well for this last year. I believed tat sumthings can be forgotten as the time goes by so why stress and upset myself abt it. Things which will never be forgotten sure remains as a learning lesson. I shall grow wif every lessons learnt and will never repeat them again. What the past did to me,
was beyond what I deserved,
When I look back, I regret what life had served,
I blame my foolishness for this situation I entered,
but I thank it for helping me walk out with a lesson learned
I lost many,
but gained more within my soul,
I know all happen for a reason,
after I realized what this bad did good,
Tears were lost,
but it's alright now,
I know my limits,
I've gained my strength
I thank all for what I've gone through,
and myself for coping with what I've got,
Those days were painful,
so if I look for happiness,
I know never to look back,
but to look towards the present and future.
+ [ Nite Rainbows ] After every heavy rainstorm, there is a rainbow + 4:30 PM
Friday, May 13, 2005
Too many things happened within these few days le. Somehow simple stuffs suddenly become so complicated. Hmm.... i think these people juz think too much le n can't let go small little things. People stop been so childish!!! Dun always think for yaself only. U got to take care of other people's feeling also. Hiazzz... is it worth it to spoil that close relationship???I have did my part to help to resolve a small part of the problem le. At least i feel better tat way coz i felt so useless at 1st coz i can't help in any way. But today, she created a chance for mi to help. So i have already cleared the misunderstanding between a few of them le. As for now, i hope tat everything will be fine soon. Things should be back to normal asap.
+ [ Nite Rainbows ] After every heavy rainstorm, there is a rainbow + 6:25 PM
Saturday, May 07, 2005
Yest was Winnie's 20th birthday... Happy Birthday ger!!! hmm, actually wanna give her a suprise at her place de, but who knows tat the sch suddenly planned for the IPP briefing loh. Stupid mood!!! Haizz, nvm.... So in the end we celebrated in the sch instead. Bought her the orea cheesecake @ starbucks, 2 tiny winnie the pooh n a DIY idol cum pals booklet. Hope she like them...
At 6.10pm we had our GI lecture. This is suppose to end at 7pm de but because of that stupid old woman la... OMG!! U know wat??? She kept toking rubbish during the lect n flirted wif one of the guys in the lect grp.... Waste my time loh. In the end the lect ends ard 7.30pm. Stupid old woman!!!!
Finally got back my TEP results le... Very happy wif my performance.... I got a B+ for the intergrated e-studies and one A for TEP. Actually i was quite shock that i can get B+ for the e-studies loh. Coz i have always been thinking tat i will not get gd grades for tat de. Tat module is based on 2 tests n 2 projects and i don't think tat i have done well the projects leh.. Nvm le.. at least when i know my results, it makes my day better.
Last nite when i come home tat time i saw the army guy again... haha... wed saw him on the bus and i bu xiao xin stepped onto his boots twice so paiseh... Den he alighted at the same stop as mi. I was walking behind him and hoping tat he doesn't live in the same block as mi. But who knows...... he lived in the same block as mi n we took the same lift and got off at the same floor. Double paiseh. Last nite i was waiting for the lift and when the door opened up, he walked out of it. So "lucky" rite???
+ [ Nite Rainbows ] After every heavy rainstorm, there is a rainbow + 11:01 AM
Tuesday, May 03, 2005
Sch ends at 12pm today coz GI tutorial is elearning for this week. Actually can release at 11am de but my QM tutor wanna make us go back for his etutuorial. Haizz... etutuorial loh still need to go back. The most unlucky thing is tat we were not taught abt the topic coz is for elearning but my grp is required to present the answers. Wat to do i only receivced the news on fri n had no time to do it wif my grp. In the end i wrote watever i think is rite onto the trans. HAHA!!! Heng ar almost all 5 qns are rite. Den after the tutuorial, my grp had a short discussion for our 2 IB projects. I think everyone still blur blur n can't think of a topic for ICA4 so i asked them to think abt it n give mi their ideas on thur. This week already 3rd week.... Die le!!! On week 6 we have got 3 reports to hand up. So fast!!!!!!After the grp meeting, I accompany ah wai to PS. When we reached there le, she den find out tat her pay has yet to be put into her account loh. OMG!!! Aiyo, the main purpose of going town today is because she wanna get her sandals but no pay how tO buy?? In the end we decided to go home. Waste time & money..... Argh!!!!
+ [ Nite Rainbows ] After every heavy rainstorm, there is a rainbow + 5:32 PM
Monday, May 02, 2005
True meaning of Rainbow
Red for the blood ive spilt
Orange for my pain
Yellow for the tears that fell
That I washed away down the drain.
Green for the heartache
Blue for the fear
Indigo for the marks you left
That I wanted you to be here
Violet for everything
My suicidal rhyme
Tears I wipe drop after drop
Falling all the time.
Rainbow filled with misery
Colours filled with hate
Suffering goes on and one
Wishing for my fate.
+ [ Nite Rainbows ] After every heavy rainstorm, there is a rainbow + 8:39 PM
I wanna cry out loud!!! I want a big comforting hug!!! ARGH!!! I don't know wat to do now. So troubled... haizzz..... A troubled mind
Leads to troubled thoughts
Troubled thoughts lead to
Disturbing actions
Disturbing actions lead to
Invasive questions
Invasive questions lead to
Troubled thoughts
Troubled thoughts lead to
A troubled mind
+ [ Nite Rainbows ] After every heavy rainstorm, there is a rainbow + 6:54 PM
Sunday, May 01, 2005
haizzz... the world is so unfair to my sweetie pie!!!! Even though she is only 5... omg 5 years old only but she already has got a very negative mindset le. Now only her mummy can help to chg her thinking. But i'm not too sure whether her mummy's attitude towards her can really chg ma. At the age of 5 she has already felt the unfairness in life le. Her bro always get wat he wants but not her. The mother can beat her juz because she wanna give in to her son. If i'm not wrong, her daddy also dotes her bro more. It is really so unfair!!!! I really pity her. Out of the 2 children, i dotes her more. Maybe i prefer gers than boys coz gers are much more disciplined in nature. Everytime i see her, i will feel so helpless. There is nutting i can do to help her. Really hope tat her thinking can chg to the better asap. I stil can't believe tat a 5 yr old child can get so physiologically affected. I wanna help her get out of tat misery!!! But how can i do it??? All the parents out there, u got to be fair to every child loh. If u can't be fair to every one of them den juz stop at 1 child coz u will bring unhappiness to ya other child. And all those unhappiness will affect his/her life in the future. U will never know wat will happen then but when sumthing happen, i'm sure u will regret ya actions n attitudes towards tat child.Pls stop destorying a young and innocent soul. Pls give her some more love!!!!She deserves sumthing much better than all those disheartening things which u pple had done to her.
+ [ Nite Rainbows ] After every heavy rainstorm, there is a rainbow + 1:10 PM