Sunday, February 27, 2005
A tearful eye
A broken Heart
Someone is gone
someone special
Heart full of love
An angel she was
Now and forever
My beloved auntie...
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i received a box of chocolates from .... haha... anyway thanz for ya concern. I know tat pple ard me are quite worried abt mi but pple i'm really fine. Pls give mi a bit more time. I'll be back to normal soon.
I'm still abit blur blur today. Don't want why i still can't get over it. They told me tat she has gone home... back to where she is suppose to be. It is cruel of u to take her away frm mi. I still have so many things which i have yet to tell her. Things which i promised to do for her have yet to accomplished too.. Where are u now?? Can u hear mi??
Do u think i still have the mood to celebrate my bday this yr without u ard?? i believe tat the box of chocolates is also frm u. Coz u are the only one who knows tat this is sumthing which will cheer mi up.
I'm so depresseed abt ur leaving but there is nutting i can do. Nutting i do can make u come back to me now. Things will never be the same...
I miss u so much.......
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Saturday, February 26, 2005
Wondering if you can hear me,
Or can you see our pain?
Can you hear our prayers for you?
Or hear us say your name?
When I go to your resting spot,
Its strange knowing your body is there.
Just 6 foot out of reach,Y
our life was just not fair.
I don't know which is hardest,
Knowing that your gone?
Or knowing that one time I was with you,
And you being dead, seems so wrong.
When I walk where we once did,
I get a strange feeling within.
It makes me realize it can all vanish,
In one little whim.
I pass by your window outside your house,
Knowing that was your room.
I remember when we were in there,
Looking out, wanting it to quit raining soon.
As I look at your house,
I see us on the steps,
Its like crossing back in time,
Remembering then, how I felt.
It seems like you should still be there,
Waiting on me to come by,
Nothing has changed there except your absence,
And I always start to cry.
Its almost as if I can feel you,
Feeling the heat off the street,
As we used to walk into town,
To get something to eat.
Every time I pass thru that town,
I'm looking for your face,
Then I realize you are gone,
And my heart starts to race.
To know you are no longer here,
I can't seem to comprehend,
In my heart I cannot accept,
Your life was put to an end.
Missing u.... Auntie Irene
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Sunday, February 20, 2005
I bought my new phone le... Went to PS to collect my SIM card then the customer service officer told mi tat i can renew my plan le... so happy loh.. coz it will be much more cheaper for mi to get the phone together wif a new contract ma. I bought Panasonic X400 n it cost $138...
My cousin help mi pay 38 bucks 1st coz i only have 100 bucks wif mi... got to pay her back asap, if not i'll feel so uncomfortable. Juz now we went to Swensens for our lunch. I ordered Black Pepper Seafood Pasta n milk shake... She was the one who foot the bill n it cost ard 80 bucks... so expansive hor..
We also went to LV n burberry to shop for her bag. In the end she bought a burberry bag which cost 700 plus loh... so x rite... She wanna buy one more de but can't find the one she like. Then went over to LV, she said she has most of them le, so she didn't get any frm there.
After tat we went to takashimaya... she was shopping for a handphone accessories. After shopping for ard an hour, she bought the Hello Kitty de n a set of toys for her children. We left town ard 3pm n she drove mi home. Before i alight, she gave mi the handphone accessories she bought frm Taka.. Aiyo.... i thought she bought it for herself de but who knows....
Really thank her so much!!! Thanx Jenny!!!!!
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Saturday, February 19, 2005
Woke up early in the morg coZ today need to help out at the Financial Services Seminar. Sianzzz.... The lecturer-in-charge mad de la... she wants us to reach there at 8.30am loh... There are 3 speakers for this seminar. Quite an enriching talk by the 3 of them. I learnt abt cash management, asset allocation n bankruptcy...
The 1st speaker was quite interesting coz he gave us some real life examples n crack some jokes. As for the 2nd speaker, his topic was quite dry la but during the Q&A seesion, he shared wif us his views n experience. The last speaker is a lawyer, he shared wif us the causes n consequences of bankruptcy.. hmm... learnt quite alot frm him la but his talk was too long le. The lecturer-in-charge ask him to shorten it... i think tat it is a bit rude to him la.. hmmm, but wad to do....
Tml i'm going to collect my SIM card le but still need to get a phone 1st... haiz!! Sobx!!! Tml see how 1st don't know enough $ to buy or not....
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Friday, February 18, 2005
Hiazzz.. long time neber update my blog le.. I feel so sleepy now coz i didn't sleep for the whole nite... i lost my phone!! Die le la... If my mummy finds out, i will be skined to death. My phone is not even 1 yr old loh n my plan is ending in 1 month time. Oh god!! I have been so bad luck these few weeks..
I was intending to renew my plan n trade in my phone de but now... aiyo... how?? No money to buy new phone also. Sunday need to go to PS to collect my new SIM card. But even if i have the SIM card, i don't have a phone also... then i still need to pay my bill. Heart bleed ar!!! Feel so bad for troubling my cousin coz the line is under her name de...
Aiyo this is only the beginning of the new year and so many bad things had happened to mi le... how to last till the end of the yr?? i'm phoneless now... so pple who read this don't contact mi through the hp number le...
Sobx!!!! Feel like crying now... Don't know how to live without a phone..... Den mi already so sad n my frenz still ask mi " how could u lose ur phone?" Aiyo... u all think i wanna lose it one meh....
Juz now during lunch, our class organized a farewell party for Mervyn Chew. Sad loh.. coz he is leaving us on tue... So my feeling so today is super super sad!!!
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Thursday, February 10, 2005
My thoughts run wild.
I can't sort them out
nothing seems to make sense.
Everything in the past
is a painful blurr of endless events
The present is
not even remotely understandable.
And the future,
the future is unclear and all too far away.
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This is the 2nd day of CNY le... Don't know why this year i don't really have the CNY mood... maybe there are still many unsolved problem in my mind.
Yest my my whole family went out till ard 4pm then come back home le coz we were too tired le. I slept at ard 3 plus the previous nite n woke up at 8am. Actually i was resting on my bed at ard 1 plus but i juz couldn't fall asleep leh... so fan loh!! Problems are still remain unsolved till today...
As for today, i didn't go out coz i got no mood n no place to go... When my daddy came back, he was surprised to see mi at home loh... He asked mi why i didn't go out... i also don't know how to answer him so i said tat i'm a loner... hahha... then he was abit shock to hear tat frm mi.. Mi so naughty hor?? Should have given him a better answer ma... i wasted my whole day loh... sleep the whole afternoon coz got nutting to do leh & it is the only way to stop mi frm thinking abt tat problem...
My appetite for these 2 days is still the same. Didn't eat much la... I only eat abit. Yest was the worst... for the one whole day, i only ate 1 small bowl of noodles n 5 sticks of satay. Today i skip my breakfast and ate 2 small bowls of fried rice. Don't why like tat also...
haizzz!!! i'm so confused now!! Can someone save mi out of this misery??? Aiyo.... so fan!!!! Actually i'm the biggest problem in the whole matter la. If it is not mi, things will not turn out to be this way now. Hope tat i can vanish frm this world... i don't wanna live in the world of dishonesty!!! Can't stand it anymore!!! I'm going crazy le la....
Really really hope tat everything will be fine asap....
~~~ i'm waiting ~~~
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Tuesday, February 08, 2005
Thinking this can't be real
i'm hiding from the way i feel
wish i could disappear
without a trace
trying to become a forgotten face
hoping one day i will
just vanished
sumtimes i juz dont know why?
Someday someone will
set me free
maybe then everyone will
let me be... ...
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It is CNY eve today!!! I had sch till 12.40 actually should be till 1pm de but my super released us 20 mins earlier... Took the train back coz the gers are going J8 then i follow them loh but i didn't shop ard coz i have been going there for quite a few days le... I reached home at abt 1.40pm had my lunch and then ironed 1 big stack of clothes... Many days never iron my clothes so it become one whole big stack loh... After bathing, i painted my nails...
Now i should be sleeping one coz i'm very tired but many things kept bothering mi n i can't sleep loh... Seems like many things have happened to mi recently. I really really hate to have this kind of feelings now. But i can't control the situation at all. Why??? Aiyo... i'm so fan now!!! Pls stop doing all those cruel things to mi can?? I'm also a human wif feelings loh. I'm not a robot for anyone of u to control mi hor... Can u pls spare a thought for mi too?? Give mi some respect....
I wanna live in my own way!!!
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Sunday, February 06, 2005
Haven't been updating my blog for a few days le coz my keyboard not working... i shall start frm yest's happening... woke up early in the morg to attend the Investment Game Presentation. It was quite boring coz 3 grps are presenting and there are very very few supporters. Then while the judges were cracking their head to finalize the results, mi n shi wai were busy playing wif Mervyn chew's digital camera. Haha... we took 2 pics wif it. Not sure when he will send the pics to us. I think he forget all abt it le, got to pester him for them tml...
After the presentation, went to teach Ronn and received my 1st ang bao... So happy!!! At ard 2 plus, i went t my auntie's place to collect the CNY goodies for my frenz n family. The stuffs are so heavy loh... Don't know when had i become a hard labour.
Everyone in the family were out yest and i was left alone at home. I got to get my dinner myself. I was too lazy to cook maggie mee coz after eating still need to wash up all the stuffs loh... Then i thought of going out to eat but i have no idea wat to eat. I went to J8 n shop ard. Saw a pale pink top at POA but didn't buy coz i can't make up my mind. I shop till 9 plus then come hm le. Didn't take my dinner n was feeling hungry at ard 11 plus...
This morg went out early to teach Sihui. After tat i went to J8 again coz i meeting my mummy there to catch a train to my cousin's place for family gathering. When i reached there le, she then called n tell mi tat my uncle will be driving us down. Then i went back home again to wait for my uncle.
Reach my cousin's place at ard 1.30pm. Today is the 1st time i visited my auntie since she fall sick. When i see her, i felt so terrible. Can't use any words to describe my feeling then. I was abt to cry but i told myself i can't. I try very very hard to hold back my tears. Find myself strong today coz i didn't let my tears roll down. As my auntie need to rest, we left the place at 4 plus so tat she can rest better. I must really thank God for letting her to stay on till today. She has already pass the 1 week le. For now, i really really hope tat she can stay on as long as she can loh.. I can't imagine wat will happen of she is gone.
James & Alfred were saying tat since we have not met each other for a long time, they will be planning a gathering again for the youngsters. hahha... don't know they will remember to plan or not...
Then after the gathering, went to jk's place n collect the keyboard frm him. Tat's is why i can update my blog now ma.
To jk: Thanks!! Buy u a big bday present when it is here...
I will be going to J8 tml after sch coz i wanna get the pale pink top frm POA. Hope tat they still have stock for it if not i will have to shop ard again. Anyone wanna join mi tml???
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Thursday, February 03, 2005
So tired now..... juz now went to Shi Wai's place during lunch time. We walked to her hse loh.... so hot... coz hwee sian didn't bring her Ez-link card loh. We ate at the coffeeshop near her place, sick of the food in sch. Spent 3 bucks for my lunch. After lunch, we walked back to sch again and now we are so tired... haha... she is sleeping now!!!
As usual, every thur we got the review session loh. Today the topic is on multimedia and the lecturer so funny loh. He think this is the 1st day we got into NYP ar??? Teach us how to use the CMS amd how to download the study materials.... Oh god!! For this topic, we have to learn Photoshop 4 & Flash 5. Stupid loh... the sch never update the program one. Now got new version le but still ask us to use the old one. They think we are design students ar??? Pls loh.... we are biz students.... why need to do Flash??? Aiyo... waste time again!!!
After the session, went back to FSRC again loh. Hmm.... then mi n shi wai went to take a look at the Photoshop & Flash program. Siao de loh.... don't even know how to start ar.... we look blanking at the program n didn't do anything.
Then at 10.30 i went to Mr Chan's room n got back my result for the 1st stopover. haha... so happy!!! Coz i got an A but he say my summary report not very gd 4.1/5. For peer evaluation i got 4.7/5 and ICA i got 8.8/10. He so bad loh... i went there 1st but i was the last to get my results. Stupid old man!!!
An hour ago, mi n shi wai were busy "drawing" our windmills and birds... haha... the pics are so funny!!! Then she is still thinking of wat prdt she wanna promote for her Flash project. Hiazz.. slowly think la. Take ya time!!! I have decided to work on the Singapore airport n 1 other place. So need to borrow her digital camera and go airport there take pics loh.... I think i will do it after CNY. Who wanna accompany mi????
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Tuesday, February 01, 2005
Oh god!!!! Today i did sumthing really really bad.... Feeling so regret now...... U know wad??? Hiazzzz!!!! I torn a $50 notes into half. Aiyo...... now so scared tat note can be use coz it is not mine leh.
So sorry, Kelvin!!! If it cannot be used, i will have to pay him back 50 bucks le. 50 bucks leh.. not 10 bucks.... how??? Die la!!!!
Why i snatch the notes frm him?? Aiyo...... should have gone back to my room after lunch ma, shouldn't have went to Friendz. Now how??? Can torn notes be accepted??? Now waiting for my cousin's reply coz she work in the bank. I think she can give mi an answer.
Quick reply mi!!! I also don't know why i snatch the note frm him loh..... Can anyone help mi now??? Feel like going to the bank now & chg the note for him... Aiyo... i'm so bad rite???
Called Szetho few mins ago... he told him tat they have already used the notes to purchase sumthing frm Fusion le. But i still feel very bad leh.... i must be crazy today!!! Mad le.....
Juz now at frenz there hor...... Shi Wai, Hwee Sian & Miran combine forces n suan mi loh... Sobx!!! Tat miran la... she kept toking rubbish and then the other 2 juz join in. The 3 of them siao de loh. Haizz... i have become the topic of the day le.
Haha.... received my cousin's reply le.... She said tat torn notes can be exchange at the bank. Today learnt sumthing new....
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